Sunday, January 3, 2010


I was blog hopping when I came across someone writing about promises. It was something about a little boy yelling at his mother in a public area "BUT YOU PROMISED!" The writer poked fun on how she nearly burst out laughing when he reminded the writer about all those promises made to her but never fulfilled. Her writings made me think back for no apparent seasons too.

When I was thinking of those unfulfilled promises, if was like chasing nothing. Things like if I do this, I get that. And after all this is done, I get something big...I mean REAL BIG, BIG. But when the time comes for the one who promises to fulfill those promises, excuses were made or new "Terms and Conditions" were set. Each time I fulfill them, they change again and again. And the changes made was never ending. It just doesn't stop, until at one point I got tired or was so busy I forgotten all about the promised prize. It's quite funny that they kept preaching that TRUST IS EARNED AND NEVER GIVEN, yet I'm expected to trust people who break promises and tell lies?

For a few years I was like a race hound chasing after that mechanical rabbit, thinking it was for real. I mean it looked very real to me! Honestly, before anyone of my age even seen the race track, I was already racing the big guns. They thought (or at least I thought) I was prodigy. I mean, YEAH, I had an advantage because I entered the race tracks before everyone else; extra lessons and training only meant I have a bigger head to start with. So when the race began for my peers, I couldn't race them because I belonged with the veterans. Some envied, some were proud, others came and ask for advice. When those advise seekers got what they wanted, they ignore me all together. But that's another story for another time.

Then all of a sudden, an angel came into my life and showed me what a real rabbit looks like. And what is it like chasing a rabbit for REAL. The excitement when you have the rabbit in your hands. It was soft... furry... cute... equally dumb, or maybe dumber. But it was definitely a million times better than that mechanical rabbit I've been chasing all those years. My angel gave me an inspiration, an idea. Why race when you can build your own tracks? Have others race for you. When my racers win, I get paid. And with that money, I have have as many rabbits I want. The rabbits will come to me instead! "Great idea", I said. So I bought that idea to the race masters. BUT... It didn't go down well at all. They hit the roof! What they wanted over ruled what I needed. Instead of being appreciated, got grounded.

My race masters kept saying that my angel isn't a real angel. He was a devil in Armani suits. But at that point I was so confused I couldn't tell what was real and what was fake. I knew I had to take a break and get my head straight. So I went to my race masters asked about my promised reward. They said "you win this next race and the reward is yours". But this time I was adamant. It was after all, long over due. But they needed time to prepare the reward, so they asked me to win this last one race while they work on my reward. Reluctantly, I agreed.

The last race was rather different. I wasn't on home ground. I had to race on someone's turf. I didn't win, nor did I loose. It's funny that on this turf, second and third places gets a prize too! I was told that this was a new ruling to entice the young guns to race. Anyway, when I got back my promise was delayed yet again. I couldn't remember what was their last excuse nor the last condition they set. I was furious. So I sought out my devil's angel to get me out of there I was tired of being a hound, "chihuahuas sounds like they have a better life", I said. I think you know what happens next right? No need to tell.

Fast forward many years later. My former race masters came to me and asked if I wanted to open a race track. They'll supply the hounds plus fulfill the promise they once made.

I may forgive but never forget,
The promises made but never kept.
Conditions set, but changes like sand,
At the castle alone, shall you defend.

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